Poems of Last Year

Tears of happiness stream done my face right now
I was looking over poems I had written last year
Explaining and crying out to God
To comfort my cries and dry my tears

Writing feelings I have never felt before
In styles I have never even tried
Reading comments left by other people
Just as much made me cry

Everyone wished they could be here for me
I wished for them to be here too
It sucked that so many were so far away
There was nothing anyone could do

I read poem after poem
Of my pain and how deep it was
No one knew I cried every night
Or what my parent’s arguing does

I was so scared that divorce would come
It was shouted it was yelled
The atmosphere was bitterness and hatred
Those two words made my house smell

But the prayers were flowing in all our rooms
God heard and answered after ten years
The family doing better and better
It’s been awhile since we all created tears

The poems of last year will be saved
Put in a box and locked away
So years from now I can pull them out
And say “Be so thankful we’re not back in them days”

Thank you God for hearing my family
Thank you for healing my broken heart
You snuck in the crack it had
And kept it from falling apart

Whatever can I do for you?
Your in heaven far from me
But Lord if I can ever repay you
Please open my eyes and help me see

Just reading some old poems and was comparing them to the current status in my home and it made me cry because I guess I didn't realize how broken hearted I was and how sad I made people feel because of it