Sometimes I wonder

Sometimes I wonder how it would be
if we were still together just you and me
would we still be happy still be smiling
or would we be full of pain and always crying
many nights I cry and picture us together
and wish that with us there was a forever
sometimes I wish that things would turn around with time
and if I wait it out you could change your mind
change your mind about us being through
and realize that I'm the only girl for you
but I know it wont happen its all in my head
and going to sleep I always dread
waking up with you on my mind
your in my head all of the time
and I cant get you out its like a stupid disease
my breaking heart will never be at ease
for you were my one first true love
when I was with you I felt like I was up above
up above in the clouds and in the sky
but now thats over so I cry
cry at night thinking of you
I still cant believe that we are through
if I could talk to you I would say
I will love you till my dieing day
you will always be in my heart
even though you tore it apart
my love for you will never end
even though were not even friends
I always want to talk to you
and I secretly wish that you want to talk to me to
but now its over and I finally see
there will never again be a you and me