I dont want you to see

There’s something you don’t see,
There’s something I don’t want you to be.

Trapped, desperate and alone,
You don’t see what its like at home.
The pain that I have to bare,
All this when your not there.

When you ask “How has things been??”
It’s always “Fine” to me.
This pain I have to hide,
You don’t see what’s deep inside.

I’m a liar, I'm a sham,
I’m not who you think I am.
I’m not perfect, not at all

All I want is out,
Do you know what I’m on about??
Course you don’t,
You can cope.
The stress, the worries, the fears,
Well I cant; I can see your tears.
But truly, if I wasn’t here would you bawl??
Would you even miss me at all??