I was intrigued by the blackness of it
I felt empowered holding it.
The world fell apart and I knew i could fix it.
I held the answer.
My entrance to this life was hectic
and I planned to exit the same way.
I wasn't scared anymore.
I wasn't worried. I was excited.
I held my eternal happiness.
And I didn't feel the blow,
I wasn't in pain.
I was in pleasance.
This was my ending. My escape.
One small trigger ended my pain.
Thank God the gun was loaded.
