Why me..

This is not a poem
Its more of a story
That will tell you all
My lifes not so filled with glory

For as long as I remember
I never fitted in
I was never good enough
Either to fat or to thin

Our family was successful
But only on the outside
The drinking and the beating
We were very good to hide

When I was six years old
I started in school
I was so very proud
And eager to follow the rules

But my dreams were quickly shattered
They didnâ??t like me at all
They teased and pushed me around
And everyone laughed when I fall

I didnâ??t stand out in a crowd
And I never understood why
They chose me to be â??the doomed oneâ??
But I grew up to be scared and shy

But as we got older
Things werenâ??t the same
I suddenly got popular
But to me they all were lame

I could not forgive
What they had done to me
I saw how fake they were
But they thought with me they could be

Now I`m all grown up
And I have made it on my own
No one helped me out
And no one can tare me down

My life is what I wanted
And I have a lot of respect
But inside I will always be scared
And with no one I truly connect

Inside I`m still a little girl
Who`s so very scared and shy
Who never thrusts in any one
And still asks the question whyâ?¦?