If Only I Knew

I desperately need to feel something
other than all this pain
I'd have killed myself a long time ago
If i knew I'd go through it again

I cant release my frustration
It just slowly builds up inside
No one understands me
No one has even tried

The world has slowly turned away
I don't want to be sad anymore
But every time i manage a smile
I end up worse off than before

I know i could truly be happy
If somebody cared for me
But such a person there is not
And there is never going to be

Maybe things will brighten up
but i don't expect it at all
For i know as soon as i find my feet
I'll just have further to fall