Dad

I don’t know what to write
I’m not sure how I feel
Out of my whole life
13 was the worst year
It all went down so fast
I had no say in anything
I’m kind of mad at everyone
And I’m sick of everything
I’m mad at you for dying
But I know you’re better off
The cancer would have been worse
But I don’t want you to be gone
I still don’t believe that you died
It’s so hard to understand
I still think you’re gonna walk through my door again
But I know you’re still dead in the end
I’ve never had someone so close die
There is nothing else that feels the same
Knowing that you’re gone makes me feel so empty
There is no other pain
But I'm still mad at you for dying
But I love you just as much
And I hope to GOD that you're okay
And maybe
Hopefully
Someday
I'll be okay too.