My Last Letter to You

I want to be older
Like you
I want to be bigger
Like you
I want to be everything
That you are
I want to be big
I want to go far
But I canâ??t
I canâ??t do it
I try
But it wonâ??t work
Youâ??ve made so much for yourself
I havenâ??t
You have so much going for you
I donâ??t
You donâ??t steal
Cheat
Or do anything bad
I do
You have a great life
You have a life
I donâ??t
You have everything planned for you
I donâ??t
You have everyone on your side
Theyâ??re against me
Everything is going great for you
You canâ??t say that about me
They donâ??t like me
You donâ??t have everyone talking about you
About how youâ??re going to fail
Cuz Iâ??m going to fail
Iâ??m just going to fail
I should pack my stuff now
So Iâ??m ready for juviâ??
I should pack my stuff now
So Iâ??m ready for jail
Cuz thatâ??s what life has for me
I donâ??t have to plan
Thatâ??s what theyâ??ve planned for me
And theyâ??re usually right
And you donâ??t have to think about this
While youâ??re staying up all night
Youâ??re sound asleep
Dreaming away
Just dreaming
Dreaming
Dreaming
Without even a care
You donâ??t have to care
You have no reason to even try
Cuz you already have motivation
And I donâ??t
So Iâ??m screwed
You donâ??t understand
I try
I really do
But it doesnâ??t seem to work out
So I give up
Once again
I love you so much
And I need you so bad
Please help me out
I canâ??t do this anymore
I donâ??t want to go to juviâ??
I donâ??t want to be in jail
But it seems thatâ??s where Iâ??m going
Why am I
The one who is bad
Why was I stuck with this part?
Why me?
Oh GOD why me?
I canâ??t take it anymore
I think it needs to end
But how
It wonâ??t be easy
But something must be done
I donâ??t know what
I donâ??t know yet
Waitâ?¦.
Maybe I do
Maybe I can run
Run far, far away
Somewhere special
Somewhere great
Across the country
Beyond the rainbow
Or maybe
Just maybe
Somewhere very, very special
Somewhere where I wonâ??t come back
Where I canâ??t come back
I think its time
Time to run
Time to leave
I need to leave
Iâ??ll go with GOD
He wonâ??t mind
Iâ??m sure Heâ??ll understand
I have no place here anymore
Iâ??m sure he knows how I feel
Heâ??s the only one who knows how I feel
But I have to go

Youâ??ll see my poems
Youâ??ll sing my songs
Remember me
Please remember me
But no matter what
I love you
And tell everyone else
That I love them too
But Iâ??ll be seeing you
Someday