You Don't Want To Be the Smart Guy

All my life I kept hearing
"I wish I was the smart kid."
Yeah they were referring to me
I'm the geek
Yeah that's me
They groan about report cards
And I smile with glee
They get F F F
I get A A B
"I wish I was the smart kid."
Yeah still talkin about me
But they don't really know me
Why would you want to be me
I go to school
And do my work
I smile at my work
I'm proud of it
It's something to be proud of
Something to be good at
Finally something I'm good at
I sit down at home and put my math book on my lap
If for any reason I have to get up
I do
And then when I come back and put
That book back on my lap
It feels warm
Like a blanket
It feels good
Finally something warm in this world
I feel like a god when I'm better
Than everyone else
I feel power when I get an A
The adults say good job and smile
Then they go on to the next desk
And frown and I realize that I'm
Better than that person
Do you know what it's like to be me
Do you
No
You don't
Do you know what it feels like to
Only be proud of a letter
An A
It's good
You feel Superior when you get 100% on that test
I'll agree to that
But that's the thing
That's the only thing to feel good
About
Do you think I just ignore you when
You tease me
No
It hurts
So I turn to magical numbers and
Friendly books
They don't hurt me
Or call my names
They don't give me F's or D's
They give me all As
And occasionally a B
That's good
I'll agree
But it sucks to be me
To be alone
No friends
Do you know what it feels like to
Constantly long for love
And then
You get a "Great Job!" sticker
What could you possibly do with
That
Nothing
Stick on your forehead and say
"Great job, man...you sure know how to get a girlfriend...."
How fun is that
To have no friends
It's not because I'm smart
I turned to studying instead of
Drugs
I use to be average
But I guess
Well
I don't know what happened
People didn't seem to like me
So I isolated myself from everyone
They don't talk to me I don't talk
To them
I hate them
They don't show affection
They don't show that they care
And they don't
That's the thing
So off to the books
Time to study
Be smart
Be good at something
You could never make a friend
You could never get a girl
You could never make your parents
Proud
So why not
What's there to loose
Time
But what would you be doing with
That extra time
Watch t.v.
Why does it matter
No one's going to be there to talk
About the last episode of Friends
Because you have no friends
You're alone
And there is no one there
And then you do something right
You get an A
And then you get another one
And you're on a roll
And soon you don't even have a B
Because you have straight As
You are that good
You finally did something
Your parents are proud
The teachers smile at you
But the girls don't
Not even the ones I think are
Unattractive
Not even the nerd on the other side
Of the building
Not even a queer would say "Hello."
They're not in the situation I'm in
They're in a whole other world
And I'm the nerd
Isolated from humanity
Alone
Miserable
The only thing that makes you
Smile is the letter A
Why would you want that
So tell me
Do you still want to be the smart
Guy