Veneer

I can always act.
i can always smile.
i can always put on a fake veneer for a while.

i can always pretend that everythings okay,
but i can never take the suicidal thoughts of mine away.

i can always laugh,
i can always try,
but in the inside i know that im going to break down and cry.

i can always try to trick you and hope you take the fake,
then you\'ll keep on hurting my soul, place my heart on the stake.

why cant you see,
whats made of me?
why cant i do,
what pleases you?

i can always take,
the pain that comes by.
i guess this veneer is working for no one sees me cry.

maybe keeping all my feelings on the inside of my mind,
is causing stuff to build up and make me so unkind.

but since i love you,
ill keep to my mind
and the thoughts that i\'ve been feeling can just be left behind.

id rather make my own self endangered or even ill
just to keep you from getting hurt from the thoughts i might spill