Should i get on my knees and pray?
or keep living life, everything still the same?
I'm so scared now
and i keep asking how
with everything spinning wildly out of control
i continue to try and get myself out of this dark hole
i need to stop blaming myself
for it's not going to get me any help
i need to start behaving
and stop all the trouble I've been making
it's so difficult to do the right thing
it's so difficult to do what they need
I'm scared for her
although we don't know for sure
can it really be true again?
do we have to do it all over again?
i hope with all my heart
that this thing will not start
I'm scared for me
the person with needs
should i put my life on hold
and wait for other lives to unfold?
or should i start to take care of myself
only me and no one Else?
should i throw my heart in the air?
and try and pretend i don't really care?
or should i guard it with all my might
no matter what pain, no matter what strife
