Is This How Life is Meant to be?(God's Plan for me?)

Hatred, a beloved scar of the past
When trust had no meaning no imprint or task

Thoughts, brainwashed your mind and made you believe love was in your way
Supposedly friends, told you that life had a purpose and that tomorrow would be a brighter day

Parents, telling you that for you, God has a plan
You end up sacrificing yourself and at the end no one is holding your hand

Depression, it makes you bitter and all you want to do is cut your wrists
Inside, there's only confusion, you fight and fight, and ask God why did I have to live life like this?

Anger, you wanna give up but for what reasons??
Faith, you find there's no point in believin'

Me, is this how life will be for the rest of my living years?
Pain, will I have to surpass it all and shed more frailing tears.