And its killing me, knowing that while all these feelings are floating around, that I love you, and to some extent I always have, from the first conversation that we ever had, I knew you were special. We loved each other and we hadnt even met, did I care? Did you care? No, we were fine just as we were. Then, the sudden realization that it was never going to happen by both of us perhaps? Maybe. But everyday after that, I kept on loving you, sometimes just as a friend, but sometimes as more. Ill never forget you; I know that its true, but I also know that youre never going to want me. That out of the both of us im the only one that is ever going to feel these feelings and I hate it, I hate hearing about the other girls that you talk to. Am I jealous? Yes, im jealous, watching you, the one who I love with all my heart loving another, pains me, I cant stand it. I want to be the one; I want to make everlasting memories with you. I want to be by your side, for the rest of our lives.
But at the same time knowing, every time that I look at you, every hug, every phone call, I hope that its going to be the one where you stop and think about it, and realise how perfect we are, together. I dont know if Ill ever see the day, but I cant wait forever, we all need to move on sometime. Will you ever realise? Or should I just give up.
