What do i do?
Who do i turn to?
This blade is my friend
My problems it helps mend
If i tell will i be shunned?
God i just wanna up and run
Will they look at me differently
Since I'm not the girl they want me to be?
I drink away my problems, and carve away fears
When will someone see these tears?
I cant let my best friend see this pain
I have to be strong for her, shes going through the same damn thing
I wanna scream and shout
But when i open my mouth, nothing comes out
So I'm stuck with this fake smile
And i try to make this miserable life worthwhile
I cant do this much longer
But each day i make it I'm stronger
On the outside i look like the happiest girl
But deep within I'm dark and dying crying out to be that happy girl
Relationships i cant stand to be in
Love is but an illusion
The only true love i have in life
Takes away my pain, my love is this knife
I cover the scars and hide the blood
No one will know of my secret love
