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Black tears stain my face
The joy, the light, the happiness is all being replaced
Smiles and laughs have to be fakes
And i live each moment for some one elses sake
If destiny went my way
Id die right now, not live another day
The pain from my past
Is so unbearable, how much longer can i last?
Sex and drugs i use as an escape
I sit at night and wonder is this my fate?
Is it gods will for me to hate myself?
Is god real? i see the bible on my shelf?
When i see myself in the mirror
All i see is death, pain and horror
Who is this girl crying?
How can she just stop trying?
Life has not treated this girl right
But shes strong she'll still fight
This girl no longer wants to live
This girl is me and i have no more life to give