Missin' You
by sierra Apr 4, 2006
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Y does it have to hurt so bad? It shouldn't cuz I know she's in a better place. I feel selfish for wanting her back cuz I know she was hurting here on earth. I don't want her to hurt. I want her to b happy, at peace n pain-free. I have to get over my pain n wat I want for her. I don't want her to cry up there cuz we're crying down here over our lost. Even tho I miss her so much I have to let her go. It's wat's best for her and wat's best for me. I have to top the tears, stop the sorrow, n stop the longing for her. It's not gonna b easy but I have to. I love her to much to hurt her. I'll b with her soon enough in the future when the Lord decides to take me away from this hell-hole called earth. As soon as I get there first I'm gonna hug God n Jesus, then I'm gonna go hug my grandma n never leave her side. I took my precious time with her for granite, but I see now that I was wrong. U never miss something until It's gone. N guess wat, I miss her like crazy. I would have been fine today if mommy hadn't brought u up. I was doing fine until I saw ur grave. I wanna put these feelings behind me n go on with life. I'm sure it's wat u would've wanted. I'm tryna b strong for Cloydia but it's hard. I have to keep this wall up against my feelings or its gonna overflow n take over my whole soul. The feelings r strong but I can't let them win. It's n internal battle that I must fight as well as win. I'm sure that these won't b the last tears I shed for u but I'm gonna try my hardest to make sure that they're some of the last tears I shed for u. I LOVE U GRANDMA. DON'T FORGET ME CUZ I SURE AS HELL HAVEN'T FORGOT U! |
