How It Used To Be

I wonder if he remembers me
Or If I'm just another simple memory
I wonder if he still thinks of us
Or if he finds our love useless
I wonder where we'd be right now
If we'd stayed together somehow
I wonder how things would be
If only he hadn't left me
I wonder if he still thinks of me everyday
And does he wonder if I'm OK?
I wonder how he currently is
And if I'm still a love of his
I think about how happy we were
And the memories begin to stir
I think about the plans we made
And the love that he betrayed
I think about all the things he said
And the perfect lives we lead
To not be able to see his face
Puts me so out of place
To not be able to know he's near
Used to be my biggest fear
Now there's so much running through my head
That I wish that I could've said
There are so many missed kisses
And so many impossible wishes
What would I be able to say
If I were to be given another day
What would happen if he were still here
Holding me in his arms, oh so near
What great joy it would bring
If I was given another chance to hear him sing
Inside my heart, how would I feel?
If he were still here, our love so real
I miss him each and every single day
That I must spend alone with him away
I miss the way he used to look out for me
The same way that it used to be
I miss all that he gave me, like his sweet love
That sheltered me, no lies, no gloves
How much longer must I cry? How many more tears?
How long must I wait? How many more years?
I wonder what his reaction would be like
If I'd been the one to tell him to take a hike?
But what I wonder most is does he still love me?
Or am I just another memory
Of how it used to be.
[c] 2O06 - Mindy Huang