Your wedding; my Heartbreak

Unmistakable
Indescribable feeling
Stomach churning
heart wont stop beating
fast paced pulse
voices inside me wont stop screaming
"Do something, don't let him do it!"

Went to Ferris today
thought about you the whole way
Mom's wondering whats got me so quiet
I told her I am about to lose the man I love
She asks who it is
I'm not going to lie anymore, I told her it was YOU.
She didn't catch on to who it was
I can't describe how much this hurts me
Looking at you wondering what could've been
but knowing it will never be

Soon you'll be in that black tux
and she'll be wearing that dress
She'll walk down that aisle looking absolutely beautiful
and I'll regret everything I said
HELL I already do!
You'll say I do and she will too
I'll walk away
a single tear in my eye
You'll ask me why I'm crying
I'll say I'm so glad your happy
but really a part of me just died
and I'll never tell you about it
because seeing you happy after I hurt you is all that matters.