Todays the day i make some changes
is what ive decided
ive finally been able to think it through
finally thought about some changes that are good for me, not you
i mean that in the nicest way possible
because lately i havent been looking after myself right
i havent been able to get through a week without seven sleepless nights
ive been living a hell that only i made
the devils in my head caused the anger
which caused the hate
to you, me, friends and my family
the anger then caused the pain
inwhich hurts me now to even try to explain
all i can say is
that i brought back memories id rather forget
and so bring back sights that id later regret
it was like i was watching myself from a distance
but didnt like what i was turning out to be
so when my soul returned to my body
i would punish myself for being a nobody
there i was
tears falling from my saddened eyes
as tears of blood fell from my already scarred wrists
and blue bruises encasing my stomach
newly formed scabs covering my yet again clenched fists
How pathetic was this girl turning out to be
Not even able to control her emotions
let alone her actions
this girl is no longer the angel i knew and remember
For she was happy, strong and enjoying life
thats what she should be doing now
brushing off the bad
staring death in the face
and walking away laughing
knowing a brand new life has taken his place
she used to be the shoulder to cry on
not the girl with 1000 problems
The girl that could make a crying friend smile
change the rain into clear uplifting sunshine
so happy
no one knew where her big white smile would end or had begun
this is the girl everyone misses
theyre fed up of the lonely one in the corner
i know theyre all afraid to admit this
but dont worry, the new me is pure happy bliss!!
Im going to be a changed girl
you just wait and see
ill do all i can
to be all i used to be
but dont you worry
all this change... its all for me!!
*^* ive been thinking for so long and finally im going to change, its all good and for once im doing it for me!! *^*
