Raw

I wish i could do something to change this....
i want so much to be with you..
and i do agree about distance....
but i also think it's just flat out wrong though....
i mean,
if you really love someone,
patience would be strong...
and you wouldn't give up as fast....
even when you cant see that person...
what do you think happens with marriages that start with one half going off to war?
the other half waits anticipating the return of her husband....
why cant that be the same with me and you?
i mean i know it's not the same situation...
but God,
don't you look forward to seeing me?
and btw,
I'm not the one that writes the short emails....
i take my time to let you know i love you....
i go into to detail to let you know i love you...
because you are so special to me...
i want to everything i can to make sure that you don't leave me.
if i was special to you,
you would do the same for me.
my biggest fear is that this relationship will fade away without us meeting each other.... and I'll forever wonder what it would have been like to hold you...
what it would have been like to gaze into your eyes and just get lost there....
you are more then the world to me baby.....
and i want that day to come so badly.
i dream about just laying next to you....
holding your hand making sure that you aren't distracted by anything else and that you just look at me...
lol.
I'm crazy huh?
i don't know babe....
i just feel the most alive,
whenever i think about you...
you are basically my goddess right now...
i don't even have that much of a relationship with God right now...
you capture every moment of the day for me...
i really cant escape my thoughts of you....
it just crushes me that you aren't the same,
crazy over me like i am for you....
you don't know what you will miss if you give up on me....
it will haunt you forever,
don't ever let go babe...
because in my mind right now,
i am gripping your hand tight....
because it feels like you're flying away....
why is it that everything i love fly away from me?