My purpose

Not making since in this world noun at all starting to wonder if i even belong I'm wanting to let go wanting to cry i have held this in so long that i want to die its not understandable to you because you dint fill the same as i live my life for a day try to understand why i have not died i was put on this earth for a reason and yet i still don't know why. i go to school pretend like every things OK i come home and every thing still remains the same the fighting cursing and even the pain i swear will it ever go away i hope some time soon that i figure out my purpose in this world let alone my life you can try to understand even listen but you will never quit know till you live it