Hey babe.i know what your going thru i lost a friend the same way. the difference is that my friends lucky # was 5,and he died 5 days before my birthday. u have to think of them being at peace now cuz no matter how bad u want them alive again their not cuming back. i know the hardest thing is to take that first step away in telling them good-bye ,but u should know deep down that ur friend wouldnt want u living in greif all ur life.so go on and live the life ur friend didnt get to live...