Not Worth Living

This life I lead in constant pain,
Gets washed away in blood made rain.
I'm taunted by the demons I have made,
And I'm too weak to be afraid.
My screams are drowned out by my tears,
I've lived this way for too many years.
I don't want to live like this anymore,
Knowing I'll never be the way I was before.
Voices scream at me inside my head,
Assuring me I'll be better off dead.
I lost the self control I never had,
Tired of always feeling nothing but sad.
I didn't start life always being wrong,
But in time I've lost my will to be strong.
Tried to make dreams for myself,
But they were made for someone else.
This world is just too full for me,
And tears make it hard for me to see.
But I know since pain is all I'm giving,
It's obvious I'm not meant for living.