I never wanted this life to end,
But lately my smile's been pretend.
I can't continue to wear this mask,
But I know that's when you'll ask.
"Why didn't you ever tell me?"
Because you were too blind to see.
Too blind to see the pain I was in,
Too blind to see the scars in my skin.
I wish I was as blind as you,
So I couldn't see what I've been through.
And just like you I'd be blind to the pain,
I could pretend my cheeks are wet from rain.
Maybe even believe my life wasn't ending,
But I'm so sick of all this pretending.
Because I'm the one who hurts inside,
Forcing a smile through the tears I've cried.
I can't escape this pain I feel,
I can't just pretend it isn't real.
Because I know it's just not okay,
And smiling doesn't make it go away.
