Sweet denial

I'm sitting here in sweet denial
Pretending it's all in my head
I'm sitting here as blank as a tile
Feeling disconnected and dead

Missing my best friend, my diary
The one to whom I tell my fears
Missing my best friend, my diary
The one who hides all of my tears

You and me both thought I couldn't do it
But now It's turning around
You and me both thought I wouldn't make it
But now my friendships are found

Deep down my heart belongs to you
Always and forever, will do
Deep down my heart will be longing for you
Like before and now I still do

But now I feel stronger
Because It's been easier than I thought
But now I care no longer
Because of the way I've been taught

If it's pure then don't worry
It will always last
If it's true then don't worry
It won't belong to the past