Self Esteem

I love my friends
Like Robbie and Martin
Tori and Summer too
Rebecca,Kaitlin
Katelyn Grant!(though I'm always mad at you.)
Cody T. too.
And I don't want to lose them
And they don't want me to die
But here alone
I sit here
and I cry.
Because everyday I'm battling
This deep and dark desire
To put a gun to my head
And blow out my own wire.
But they say they don't want to lose me
They seem to really care
I want to do good for them
I want to help them out
But all I do is stand in the way
and want to get knocked out.
If there is a way
For me to go
I would take it
But they would take the blow.
Robbie and Kaitlin would be sad
Tarrance once said he'd cry
Rebecca and Katelyn would lose a friend
If I went and died.
Tori and Summer
well I don't know
But I would miss them a lot.
I'd spend my time with Kurt Cobane
Wanting to say goodbye.
So if I can't help you,
my dear friends
You mean so much to me
I will probably
Slit my wrists to death
No more self esteem.

-This poem is for Robbie,Katelyn,
Kaitlin,Rebecca,Tarrance,Martin,
Summer,and Tori.May I live with you to the end of my days.