I'm so confused, I'm becoming afraid
With the choices to come and the decisions I've made
What do I want versus what do I need
What kind of life do I really want to lead?
A life of suspicion or a life of love
Why is it two I'm always thinking of
I'm not sure if it's wrong or right
Cause with number one there's always a fight
There's always the doubt of us both staying true
You have no idea what we put each other through
Three years together is becoming routine
I've done what I've done and I've seen what I've seen
I've loved then lost then loved again
I know it will end I just don't know when
It's just so hard to walk away
When I keep thinking there's a reason to stay
He'll prove him right and prove me wrong
I can't see how we've been together this long
And when I find the strength to get up and leave
He'll feed me some bullshit he knows I'll believe
But the question remains, if it's love that he lacks
Then why does he keep on coming back?
Three years is just too much to throw away
When I don't want to go, but I don't want to stay
My number two is something else,
I've never felt this way before
When either of us walk away,
We always come back for more
I don't deserve someone like him,
I've hurt him more than I'll ever know
I wish I could take his pain away,
And just let these feelings grow
It started out with unbearable lust
I didn't know what to do,
And looking back on the choices I've made
They all have lead me to you
He's the only one who has ever loved me
Despite all the things that I've done
He's the best-est friend I've ever had
It's hard not to think he's the one
But the thing that I can't get out of my head
Is hoping this isn't just lust
But we've been like this since I can remember
He's the only boy I trust
This has to be more than what I've thought
When these feelings keep growing strong
Oh God, what am I supposed to do?
Is this right or is this wrong?
I hate being torn between these two
And I know the things I'm supposed to do
I'm just so messed up, I cannot decide
And it's getting harder and harder for me to hide
How can I know which love is true...
When I'm in love with number one...
And I'm in love with number two..
