A Heart Sinking Deep

I should be crying right now
Tears should be rolling over you
And I don't understand why
I'm not falling; I always do

The thought of you leaving
Usually breaks me apart
And I can sense the hurt
But the tears stopped in my heart

I'm still all locked up
So I know I'm not free
But the pain inside
Is not killing me

I feel so weak and numb
So defeated and tired
Not even upset anymore
Or angry and fired

I should be mad over
All of this wasted time
But my heart is fooling me
Into thinking all is fine

I'm stuck with my memories
And past regrets unshared
I just wish right now
That somebody had cared

I can't explain in words
How I can stand so strong
When I know deep inside
That this is all too wrong

I'm here all alone
With feelings like stone
I'm loosing touch
I've cried so much
Everything I miss
Man, do I hate this
It's not like before
I'm tired and sore
And with pain to keep
My heart sinks deep...