Nothing to Gain

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As she walks through the halls
She avoids curious eyes
For she's scared someone will see
What'd hidden deep inside

A pain that will stay
And refuses to heal
Soon numbs her body
So she can no longer feel

She avoids all the people
Who throw glances her way
She can't look them in the eyes
Her heart is now gray

She hears all the rumors
What they whisper behind her back
She sees the hostile looks
Her world has turned black

She's a lonely young woman
Who doesn't fit in
There's no one to help her
She just cannot win

At lunch she sits alone
Where no one can see
The pain in her eyes
And her heart that now bleeds

She has no one at school
She has no one at home
She can't live this life
And forever be alone

She slowly walks home
She despises her life
There's nothing she can do
To end all this strife

Her house is so empty
Her heart is in pain
Why keep on living
When there's nothing to gain?

Her dad is at the bar
Her mom isn't there
Why keep on existing
When no one even cares?

She has not one person
To go to when she's feeling down
She has not one single friend
To make her smile, instead of frown

It's not even worth trying
Pretending it'll all be okay
That maybe she'll be happy
And see the light someday

She lays down on her bed
With the bottle in her hand
And thinks about her life;
The life she can't stand.

One after another,
Pill after pill,
Memories of everything
She's trying to kill

Killing her memories
Stifling her pain
Drowning her sorrows
Cause there's nothing to gain

Her eyelids slowly close
As she swallows the last one
The last thought she had
Was, "What have I done?"

She's far too gone;
Her heart's no longer there
The life has left her body
But no one seems to care.

She can't take it back
The damage is done
Receiving what she wanted;
Death has now won.

Rachel Crombie--4//6//06