Ashamed-Part 2 (Continuation)

Why do you treat me this way?
At least you could put in one say.

You never had faith for me,
Sometimes I think you\'re always against me,
Well, maybe you are,
And that IS the point,

Most of the time I believe you dislike me,
Up to this point you should know,
Boys are going to want to talk to me,
And I can\'t resist that loving feeling you know,

The reason I did that was because,
I felt you never loved me,
You would never give attention to me,
It\'s like you would skip right over me,

And go right to whose next in line.

So I found someone else who would love me like no other,
Who would want to take care of me,
Unlike someone other,

And I guess that feeling just needed filled,
So I took that chance to say,
He*l, f*ck it, get mad!
But I was not going to let mine go.

You already know,
You need to understand,
I do not want to go through nothing like you,
But you always refused.

Unlike you I said,
F*ck that, I\'m going to get my man,
And then we are going to be together,
Forever, forever until we get married.

Sometimes I think you\'re jealous,
Jealous of what I got,
That you didn\'t have.

And that\'s true love,
True love for the rest of my life,
But I\'m not going to let your shame,
Bring me down.

Like you said before,
\"I\'ve done all this stuff to make you happy,\"

Nall Boo-Boo,
This sh*t ain\'t even made me snappy,
It ain\'t made me smile, grin, or throw out a fake laugh,

All this stuff has done was made me go crazy,
So crazy that I just feel like killing like mad.

I hope this motherf*cking sh*t has made you so glad,
The only thing that would make me happy,
Is you lay off my life,
And live yours while you\'re still happy and living,

Cause when you\'re over,
There\'s nothing left to do,
But life-long giving,
And that is true!

The reason I wrote this was cause I\'m mad,
You make me go crazy,
It must don\'t seem like it,
Cause I hide it behind playful fakeful happy.

This is my diary..

I know I may feel sorry,
But I just couldn\'t take anymore,
Of your hateness and suffering.

You\'ll always be my mama and papa,
But sometimes, you just got to let me go,
And let me live my OWN life!