My bloody dream

As i sit in my room and stare at my scarred arms i wonder how low i must have gone to do such a thing
i swore to myself to never do such a thing ever again
then i get the phone call and my whole world falls around me yet again
i look at my razor blade and sigh with relief....
i rip the blade from my neck and start hacking at my scarred wrist
soon blood is poring out
i know that i should tell someone but i don't instead i just start cutting my legs
cut after cut i feel more calm.... i drop
the blade and smile
I'm covered in blood and i think that Ive done everything right then all of a sudden all goes black and i thought i was Free from all my misery but i then wake up with 5 doctors around me and i then start to cry