Deep down*~*

This feeling deep within me
is making my head spin
there is no way to get around it,
there is no way to win

my body is so tired of this
i'm so depressed and confused
my soul has been ripped out and torn to bits,
and my heart has been abused

all these things i keep bottled inside, make me feel like i'm going to pop
but i don't know how to make myself better,
how do i make this hurt stop?

at times i think i'm over you,
i make myself believe you're just a friend
but then when i see you
i fall in love all over again

even though you are in love with her,
i still wish we weren't apart
deep down i must really love you,
because i don't hate you for breaking my heart

i really should hate you
for some of the things you did
but i never start to hate you;
i just like you more instead

this is what confuses me;
i don't know what to do
because the more that you ignore me, the more i fall in love with you