Breaking my soul in

Look for me under the eves...
naked and ashamed
for every deed,
i plead mercy...
i wish i could release this bitterness that controls my life...
I\\\'m so cold to emotion...
it feels like I\\\'m numb...
i want to forgive...
but my past wont let me...
i try to run...
but I\\\'m always going in circles..

look for me in the corner of the closet...
I\\\'ve been locked up in here for so long...
please understand...
it\\\'s been awhile since i have spoken...
i have my blood to thank for that...
you thought you heard me when i still had an open mouth...
but you got the point so misconstrued...
i just wanted you to believe that i want my life to be whole again...

take this away...
i don\\\'t want to be this person anymore...
I\\\'m tired inside...
I\\\'m sick of waiting behind close doors...
i don\\\'t want rejection to rule over my life...
i want to accept and to be accepted...
i just need to break in order to forgive this world...