Remember

Open your eyes
Is there something you can't see?
Who are you to judge?
You are surely not me
Do I criticize your hopes?
And shatter your dreams?
You have no right at all
Absolutely no means
You looked at me so right
Made me feel so small
I wish it was still like that
Instead of not looking at all
I gave you my heart
And told you my needs
You made me feel trust
You made me feel fear
What happened made us both die
Because we both held her dear
That day was the last time I would ever cry
There is nothing that could hurt me more
Than watching our baby die
I cried a million tears that day
Make that a million and one
I will never be happy
Our baby girl never got to see the sun
I know you think I don't care
I do, I just couldn't stand
The thought of seeing her mother
Holding another's hand
You gave birth to my daughter
Loved me and her both
I loved you back just as much
And held her just as close
The last time I ever saw you I couldn't look you in the eye
Because the day we lost our baby I vowed to never cry
Now you cannot be with me
I thought it was meant to last
But when god took our baby girl
That killed both of us so fast
You knew me when I smiled, you knew me when I laughed
You knew the way I used to be
The way that has now left
I am an empty shell now
I'll love you from forever on
Now we cannot be together
Our love was as bright at it has ever shone
We loved our baby girl, but now god has her
She and you are gone
You took your life
You broke mine more
I didn't cry
I couldn't, I wouldn't let myself
Becoming lost now in this world
Without my 2 baby girls
Thinking "someone help me"
But not being able to make anyone see
That I am dead
Walking through a dream
Never again will my eyes
Have that loving gleam

Dedicated to my baby girl,
Jessica Gabrielle Messarik Who died on April 21st 2005 at 2:34 am from a brain tumor.
And my Fiancee Jessica Star Shiekson who died March 23rd 2006 after taking her own life almost 1 year after the loss of our daughter.