But Me

I sit and watch the people pass by
I try my hardest to be strong
I try my best not to cry
but my hope fades away
until it slowly withers and dies.

I never could do it alone
although I’ve always tried
I thought I lost it all
until my emotions died.

I feel the pressure of the pain
beating down on me
my tears bring on the rain
for all that will never be.

I can't believe I got this far
I've lost my life, my soul, my heart.

I can't find it in me to care
I don't know how to go on
I don't know if I dare
to look at what I have become.

Why does the sun still shine
when everything is just not right?
Why can't I leave it behind
and no longer have to fight?

I've got to put this out of my mind
I've got to leave it all behind
I just can't find it in me
to look to find
why everyone is happy
..but me