Without You

Walking in the shadows
I watch my life pass by
I think of what was
and I slowly begin to cry.

The tears trace a line
of what was once my life
I wish I could leave it behind
but instead I deepen the strife.

I wish I didn't love you,
but then I wouldn't live
I wish you didn't do the things you did
but then I wouldn't know how to survive.

I wish I didn't have to live without you
but I know better now
I know what I have to do
I know what I cannot allow.

I can't allow myself to give up my heart
I can't give it all up
and make a new start.

I can't tear down my walls
I can't leave my solitude
I can't allow another fall
I can't allow anyone to intrude.

I have to do this alone
for there is no other way
my heart has turned to stone
that is how I face my day.

without you...