I know this isnt gonna helo...but you really do have to get over him. all this is doing is causing you paint and torment, that you honestly do not need, nor do you deserve. As one of my friends once said "Love is like stainless steel, it can get dents and scratches in it, but if it breaks, it wasn't true". i guess this love just wasn't stainless steel quality...you'll get over this eventually. just never stop looking forward sore, you can do it.

on a brighter note, good poem, despite the lack of rhyme. the message you put in is what made it good