External/internal scars

Bruises, cuts and cigarette burns,
Are just the surface wounds
You left many deeper scars
Those that may not be seen.
Hidden deep within
Never to heal.
Broken bones and burnt skin
Only covering a fragmented soul
The pain you caused cannot be measured.
Damaged your family deep inside.
Told us we were useless
Never good enough
We could never please you
Even though we tried.
You could only see imperfection,
A problem you tried to fix.
Until you gained a taste
A taste for pain and blood.
It became your daily ritual
To torture us and trap us here.

We really thought you cared for us
We defended you
Lied about what you did,
Never seemed to realize
That what you did was wrong.
Somehow you convinced us
Convinced that you cared
That what you did was for us
Told us to lie,
Not to tell a soul.
Managed to make us believe
So silent we remained
Silently we suffered.
Looking back I wish I'd spoken
Shouted out the truth,
No matter what it would have caused.

And now even when your gone
You are causing pain.
Family lays in shatters
A smashed mirror with razor edges
Never to be remade.
The fear you cause remains
And the silence continues.
Still we cannot tell a soul,
Not of what you did
Nor that you are gone.
For the fear runs too deep
Makes caverns within the soul
Caverns that shall never be filled.
You left us with nothing
Not even knowing where you are,
No money, no family,
And no reason to remain.

We should have been able to trust you,
You should have been there
Filled the role that you were given
For your family you should care.
We used to blame ourselves
Think that we were unworthy
Undeserving of your love
But now I've come to see
That it was not only us
You are to blame too.
But do not worry,
We will get though.

Most people love their parents
The ones who brought them life
But most fathers don't act like you
Beating their children and wife.
I hope you realize what you did
Hope your haunted by it for life,
Remember those you left behind
Remember all the pain and strife.

Bruises, cuts and cigarette burns,
Are just the surface wounds
Just the surface scars you left
And more still that you caused.
But these will heal in time
Fade and be forgotten.
The other scars,
The ones deep within
Will remain until the end.

Although you are gone
Left us far behind
The scars will always be here
Holding you within my mind

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this isn't very good I know... just sort of started typing and this is what resulted.