Poem For a Friend (who might not exists)

I've never seen your face
Yet I miss you
I don't even know your name
Yet I miss you
I still know where to find you
Yet I continue to miss you
You believe me to not be who I say I am
Yet I miss you
I think you're avoiding talking to me
That's why I miss you
We have probably lost much to talk about
Yet I want to talk
I'm not who I was when we met
Do you miss her?

You don't know you know my name
Yet I know I don't know yours
I miss that
I miss the time we spent together
Miles apart
I'll never forget you
Even though it's you I never knew

I'm sorry I scared you away
Lost you
Your trust
I almost wish we never met
But we haven't
I almost hope we never will

I hate knowing you're there
But not talking
Why don't you just leave
So I can miss you
Without having to see you

I'm sorry I scared you away
Made you think I was a lie
I always try to be true
But how would you know
Surely a child's mind can't be how mine was

I don't want to say bye forever
But I miss you too much for this hope
I don't want to become your crazy fan
I just want to be your friend
Again

You might have been the first to hurt me
But now I really do miss you
This is what happens when
A little girl grows up and
Starts missing her first real Internet friend