Why is it?

Why is it everyday i hear you say,
I'm going here and I'm going there,
why is it that you always say, I'm busy today,
why is it you say that when your not,
why is it ? would you rather not,
busy , yes busy, when you invite yourself,
busy just to leave me out
busy is a new you,
busy is gone from me,
your never here, always there,
my mother asking where are you,
my mother saying it's okay she can eat here,
my mother worried, it's not you,
me wondering why aren't i ,
I wonder why you lie
I use to think friends forever,
I thought you felt that to,
I try to change my evil ways,
but you just go leave me in the dark,
I sit here trying to think
what was it that i did,
i had her gearing towards straight A's
now i look and i see , she's changing,
and to be unbelievably wrong,
though she does not know,
when i see her look in the mirror, its not her i see but a duplicate of something else something evil and wrong,
why is i cry myself to sleep,
wondering what went wrong,
i wonder again whats wrong with me, we use to be
such good friends,
now she's gone,
feels like forever ,
now she's left to be with better,
as she thinks they are so,
but when i look shes going to go,
down to the bottom, where,
there is no return,
why must this happen?,
why is it me
i cry as i write, thinking what has she done,
why , why oh why, must she lie,
i use to be the only one , i used to be
the one to go to help for,
i used to be the one she called,
i used to be the one she always went home with after school,
i use to be the one that bought her underwear because i cared,
i used to drive back and forth 10 min each way just to hang out for less than a day,
now i look back on the previous Friday,
you rather go to Lisa's all spring break,
i thought earlier in the year,
you would be the one I'd never share,
you would keep my secrets,
you would hear my special one and only words,
but now that you don't spend time,
yes i may be selfish, but how long have you spent with Lisa and others,
i wonder, how long has it been since you've even seen my mother?
i look at you i look at her,
i strive for attention to strike off from her,
you used to say how you needed to talk about her,
how you felt around her,
now think about this ,
me and Abby are just fading into the past as you kick us both in the ass?