Depression thats a new word for my vocabulary
For my mom and friends i act the contrary
With the counselor i let it all out, no holding back
now mom thinks the counselor is talking smack
why don't i tell mom all these things
maybe cuz I'm scared of the pain the truth brings
but i know somethings not right at all
I'm slowly watching my world fall
i pray to god not again not again
please god don't let this start again
but i cant help it the pain is coming
theres no use in hiding no use in running
depression is a disease not a state of mind
its not me thinking its the depression from deep inside
its the pain built up from over the years
from me hiding and suffocating my precious tears
i cant do it i cant silence this pain
ill let the tears flow and fall like rain
i keep telling myself I'm fine I'm fine
but really guys it don't take an expert to see I'm lying
i cant answer the question whats wrong
cuz i don't know i bottle it up and try to be strong
but this pain is over whelming me
and along with the sadness depression it brings
