The fallen...

I'm sick of all this pain
Burning in my chest again and again
When I loved I was thrown away
Bleeding with tears for that betray
How can I put myself together
And throw away this darkness and anger?
I'm all destroyed because of u
I wish I'd knew
That u chased my pureness
Then let me crawl in loneliness
Nights between memories
Killed bit by bit by your lies
Why couldn't u stop making me fall in love?
U cut my wings when I flied far above
Stop pretending like you're sorry
Stop showing that you're worried
You've never cared for me
I don't understand why u wanted me to be
The one to scream in the midnight
Taking an unfinished inner-fight
For all that passion
So u can get another satisfaction?
For all that intensity
So that u can steal my eyes' clarity?
I'll never understand why
Your lack of mercy made me cry
So hard that my eyes were dried
To many moments when i wanted to die
Thinking I was no good for yourself
No good even for myself
An obsessive depression
Causing more and more tension
In my nerves and soul
You're the one that made me fall
Why so much darkness around?
Like I'm trapped in a mute crowd
Trying to grab my filthy feet
I'll regret forever more the day we've met
But you'll never regret my unhappiness
Cause u don't know this bloodiness
Sneaking in my entire being
Stealing and crashing each feeling
So miserable is my heart
So scratched is my tearing apart
But I can't deny my love for u
That easily faded before I knew
I just realize I have deep scars
That will persist like the lighten stars
My being won't forget your sweet bitterness
My eyes won't forget your cruelness
No matter how I try
I won't stop asking why..
Now u are a closed chapter 4 me
I wish I could feel free
That will never happen
With or without u,I am the fallen..

~© by Andra - thanks 4 looking~