Pretending

Laltely I have been pretending,
About everything I do,
Everyone thinks I am fine,
And that I am on my way to being happy again,
But really,
I'm not.
I am not okay
I am pretending.
I put on a fake smile and everyone thinks it's genuine
But it's just pretend.
I push out laughter
When I really don't want to even smile
I grow weaker and weaker each day.
I continue to pretend,
Just for my friends,
That I am alright.
When I really,
Am just dying,
I don't know how long I can keep pretending
I think my emotions will take over me,
And I'll be hurting even more than I already am.
I hate pretedning I am happy.
I just hate it.