What no one knows

My feelings take a form
create a shape
something terrible and ugly
as no one knows
i sit alone
wondering
thinking
staring
waiting for it to come back
to haunt and taunt me
not giving me rest
to tease at me and make me sick
to make me cry for no reason
I'm forever followed with these terrible thoughts
make them leave me
i plead to no one
i want this to end
i want to be free
my feelings are my only enemy
please, let me be