Pain

Here I stand in the middle of the street with the raining getting harder and harder. My life just ended before my eyes. My heart cant stop beating, I feel like I am going to die, why it is hurting this much. I am suppose to feel this much pain. Damn stop, all I want to do is get a knife and kill the pain. It hurts so badly. I am going crazy, why did this have to happen to me. I didn't think I would fall this hard. I see everyone giving me dirty looks as they pass by. A car stops telling me to move. I cant take it, just kill me. I dont want this pain; I just rather die where I cant feel anything. Here I stand again in my room waiting for God to take me; if I cant be happy then I rather not live.