Because of you

Because of you my life is ruined
Because of you I never got to live my childhood like I wanted
Because of you I am scared of being around other people,
I shake and my leg’s start to break and don’t have a clue what to say.

People tell me I should speak,
But what is it to them if don’t make a squeak
They don’t understand what goes inside of me
When they tell me what to do, it’s like they don’t care
They just say whatever they want to, but I know what the truth is and they don’t.

Because of you I’m always like this, always depressed and lonely
I try to be happy and all smiley, but you the past always bring me down into this world with these feelings, that go around in circles and circles again with a never ending story.

You haunt me in my dreams,
You hurt me in every way that you can in my sleep,
You always seem to get your way, but I lay awake after and
Think *why did u have to do what you did* couldn’t you just leave me alone in peace?

No matter what I do,
No matter where I go,
I always end up feeling lonely
And believe I have no one who loves or care about me.

Around me I see normal people
They look so pretty, and so shiny,
Their hair so smooth and so soft
But all I see is a girl with feelings locked inside of me.

I try to be so cool,
I try to be happy around the people I know,
I walk in the streets and act like I don’t care
What people think of me, but deep down I know they are staring at me
And thinking what kind of a girl is she, a looser and a freak yeah that’s me.

So this is my story,
Listen carefully,
It might be boring,
But oh well, I don’t care, because no one gives a damn about me and
That sure is the truth, really.