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I waited for years
To receive broken dreams
I drowned in my tears
And was resurrected by screams.

I held on for so long;
But so long was too short
My time has all gone
And it was too late to retort.

Revenge clung to me
Like the first days of death
Though I pushed it away
It choked down my last breath.

I held onto you
To see what would change
But the blindness I knew
Left me alone in the rain.

And when you ran away
Was when I missed you most
But you told me to stay
Because whats farthest is close.

I promised myself
I would not leave you alone
But that book on my shelf
Has become old and outgrown.

I will still wait for you
To turn back one day
And in all that you do,
I hope youll end up my way.

But for now I will leave
A space for us each
Where my memories tease
Of whats just out of reach.

I have to let go
And recline into me;
Fall for all that I know
And for all you dont see.

Perhaps you will wake
In a lie you can live
But for all that you fake
You will eventually give.

When you steal with your heart
And lie through your teeth
Life will tear you apart
And Ill hand you the wreath
You have dug your own grave;
Now youll dig yourself out
And your lies that I save
Will be heard when you shout.

Im walking a new road;
One where I stand-alone
I must relive this load
So dont follow me home.

Ill travel through time
To where my old ways were best
In this sweet place of mine
I have no truth to test.

I will hold onto Pain
For I loved you once then;
Perhaps one day the rain
Will bring back my lost friend.

I have left you behind
To regain all Ive lost
I guess this friendship of mine
Has demanded its cost.

But Im not gone forever;
There are lifetimes in days
I hope you will remember
That the me in you stays.

Ill say goodbye to my end
And the world that was gloved
Ill say goodbye to my friend
And the last part of me I loved.
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This was about a friend of mine that ran away from home this weekend, and when I tried to help she just told me to leave her alone, so I wrote this poem to and for her.