Dark Corner

Looking in the mirror,
All i see is ugliness, the fat.
Walking around all i see are people staring.
crying myself to sleep every night about everything, about nothing.
Being annoying and hyper,
So you'll think I'm happy.
Laughing it off when people call me ugly and fat.
Knowing that I'm never gonna get a guy.
Hurting myself, punishing myself so the anger will go away.
Being a problem to my parents.
Wanting it to end but can't.
Do you know how it feels to be me? Do you?
Don't talk to me, leave me alone.
I like this dark corner where I can cry and no one knows.
I just wanna scream but when I try nothing but tears spill.
Wanting, needing someone to hold me, listen to me, understand me.
Wishing I could be them
Those pretty, happy, rich people.
Damn you, I'm not worth it.

-Mashaal Malik