I think I'm getting sick of
Being that good person
That always puts people before myself
The boulder is getting too heavy
I think I'm about to crash
I have reached a point in my life
Where I feel like trash
I'm always helping people out
With the problems in their lives
Or putting someone's feelings
In front of mine
For once I want to be heard
And for once I want to say I'm not fine
I just want to step up and say
Say how I really feel
But how can I
Because I know it will make it harder for you
But this is the point where I have realized
That my soul can't take this anymore
Soon I am going to burst
I no longer want to push my feelings to the floor
But every time someone is hurting
I forget about myself
And say what will make them feel better
And throw my thoughts on a shelf
Even if it hurts me
I do what's best for you
And no matter how hard I try
I always seemed to get screwed
I never get what I want
Because I always want someone else to be happy
And I know that this is going to happen again
So why did I even try
Try to explain
It's never worked before
And know it just got me in deeper
Now it made it worse
And I'm not going to be able to forget
That memory will never disperse
I should've been smart
And thought of myself
But again I forgot my feelings
So that you will get what you want
I didn't want you to go through the trouble
So stepped up and lied
And said I wanted you to happy
When the truth is
I'm crying inside
I told you I wanted to have fun at home
But truly I know this isn't going to help me
So why do I always try to please other people?
Why can't I try to please myself?
I just want you right now
But I told you it was ok
That I was perfectly fine
But again I get the worst of it
And I am going to have to pay
Maybe I shouldn't be that good person
But how can I not
The only reason I'm here
Is to help everyone else
And make them happy
Even if it makes me
Makes me lose my pulse
I'm dying inside
Crying inside
But I always keep a smile on
So no one can see
See the tears in my eyes
