So Confused

I'm so confused
part of me
longs to end this
to run away
like I've always done
but part of me
wants to stay
to see what will happen
I am so torn between
these two choices
do I leave you
and do what I have
always done
staying detatched
or do I stay close
and let you choose
to heal me
or hurt me
I know you want
to do the right thing
but what if your wrong
what if you only
break my already
shattered heart?
will you hang around to
fix it up
or will you disapear
I can't stand this wondering
I have to make my decision soon
and I'm so confused
I know waiting for me
to decide is killing you
and I'm so sorry
I'm trying hard to figure this out
I want to have you beside me
but fear will always be there
I want to trust you
but my hearts been
left in pieces
too many times before
and this seems like a leap of faith
so the question is for me
and not for you
my question is
do I know you will catch me?

*this is for a few people boys and girls... not necessarily in a boyfriend girlfriend... but some of it is... i dont know I'm just SO confused!*